Finding a Way.

SO stressed!!


I feel like my life goes in one giant cycle. I have a couple good months of stress-free goodness- I am 100% sure about what I am doing in my life and I don't doubt anything. THEN! I come across a point where I begin to question everything! I start thinking way too much and then I decide I need to do something different with my life and I end up in a pickle. This is exactly where I am right now.


I recently applied to BYU since it is half the price of what I pay to attend Utah State and it really is a good school! I just spontaneously decided one day that I was going to apply. I didn't think much of it afterwards and, to be honest, I didn't think I would get accepted. However, I got accepted! Now I have to figure out what the heck I am supposed to do. I just went down and spent the weekend in Provo with Lacey Holt and Kaitlyn Turner.

 They showed me around campus and got me all the more confused :). I have some major issues to begin with when it comes to making decisions, I can't even choose what movie I would like to watch at night, let alone choose a school for the next two years that could ultimately change my entire life! 


If everything I have worked so hard for at USU would transfer perfectly to BYU I would do it in a second. However, if I go there I have to take 5 religion classes and 3 extra GE classes I wouldn't normally have to take if I were to stay in Logan. However, BYU would save me around $10,000 dollars in the next two years! Pretty convincing if you ask me...
I just want answers right now and it makes me sick having to sit here waiting to see if everything will work out. I just want someone to tell me what to do! I have zero patience.


 In his talk, Waiting upon the Lord, Robert D. Hales said,"Too often we pray to have patience, but we want it right now!" 

I would have to say that is exactly how I am. I have been praying and fasting about what I should do, but I just feel like my answer is, "It's up to you!".... Not all that helpful. 
I know that whatever I choose it will work out and I will be just fine! I just don't enjoy not knowing right now! 

Then I watched this and decided my life probably isn't all that bad. I may have giant questions that I feel are unanswered and I may feel stressed about what I need to do in my life. Regardless, I know that if I am doing everything that I need to be then I will get where I am supposed to be. My questions will get answers. Everything will work out.

oh the agony!!