My week from Hell has now come to an end! Since I finally finished all of my assignments I found some time to clean my room (which has been neglected) and some laundry. This should be a simple task, however, me and laundry don't mix well. Apparently, neither do black pants and yellow shirts. :( I didn't do this knowingly. i'm not good at laundry, but i'm not dumb! I did not notice my yellow shirt was thrown into the wash with all my dark clothes. It came to my attention that I had done such a thing as I was transporting my clothes into the dryer and noticed a nice yellowish/grey shirt mumbled into the darkness. Poor yellow shirt. And I'm sad not only because it was a great shirt, but I also have this weird thing where I only wear yellow when I write tests-- they are lucky! And I have a very limited supply of those gems and good load of tests. This is a problem.
On the bright side (no pun intended) I have now figured out my life.. somewhat. I don't feel great about anything and I am still confused. But, I have signed a contract for a house in Provo and have began transferring all my paperwork so I can be legal when I go. So it's official, i'm leaving Logan. I really try not to think about it too hard, because I am in love with Logan and I love USU. It's just so much money! I have already talked to people about coming back to USU to get my masters in 2 years- so perhaps I will be back!
I think it's funny how I am always so stressed about everything and then in the end, it all works out. I do trust that I am doing the right thing, it's just hard sometimes to find that confidence in my decisions. Throughout everything, I have found it hard to make all my decisions while being so far away from my family. Anyone who knows me will understand that I talk to my mom basically all day and I Skype my family on a regular basis. Regardless, it's not the same as being able to sit down on the couch together and discuss things.
Although I have struggled and felt alone I just couldn't help to notice how in tune my parents have been with the whole situation. My Mom is continually checking up on me and helping me accomplish my long list of things that need to be done. I have no idea what I would do without her. And then lately my Dad has been like a life coach, I don't know where it has come from, but it works! After talking on the phone with him I always feel more calm about everything. As I was struggling with everything, my Dad would always text me some 8 page text full of words of wisdom and encouragement. One night in particular, I was sitting in my living room contemplating my life- my mind was going 100mph trying to figure everything out. I felt alone and I felt like I wasn't receiving any help. Just as I was sitting there getting more and more frustrated, I got a long text from my Dad. He just wanted to tell me that I would figure everything out and that he had confidence in my decision making. I don't think he has a clue how much that meant to me and how that was exactly what I needed at that time. Since everything I was hearing sounded kinda like this.
This whole time i've been searching for answers, but I guess i've had the tools to find the right ones all along. I definitely couldn't have gotten this far alone. Now if only my parents could do my laundry through texts and skype...
ONly 43 more days!
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